Thursday, June 14, 2007
the big C
Welp got the news yesterday. The biopsy they did after the uterine ablation showed stage 1 cancer of my uterus.
My gyn called me and asked if I had folks with me here and I was like no ...
tah dah.
Ack. So they will yank that and some lymph nodes out in the next month or so.
Wow. It really is odd. And I so thankful that I went through with the ablation. I was just talking to the office manager at my gyn telling her that I made the appointments for the cat scan and oncologist. She said she had said to Dr. Taylor that it was really weird how I called and said ... let's do it now. The ablation. It was like I knew. And I did almost chicken out ... weenie that I am. I bled for three weeks straight. Heavy. Big clots. I was very depleted and just didn't want to go through that anymore. The progesterone was not stopping it.
Of course as soon as I made the appointment for the ablation, I stopped bleeding. And then I thought ... wow. Maybe I should just cancel but I said what the hell.
And I am so glad I did.
Haven't told my parents yet. I did tell Missy and she is good in a crisis. And was sweet. She had her gf, Camille, call me. She was an oncology nurse for 20 years and said she never had a patient with uterine cancer so that the surgical cure works.
But how weird is that? It is hard to explain our complicated relationship. They understand better when we are fighting than when we are supportive of one another. I try to tell them that when you love someone for 10 years ... in a way it never goes away. And she knows I would be there for her too. But her crazy gf? Well. Whatever.
Anyhoo. Yesterday I was numb and calling people because that is what I do. Today I find I blew my wad and have no one else to tell. :) So now I am telling the world. hee hee.
I did tell the kids and they didn't see that interested and went back to their respective computer/playstation.
And so it goes ...
My gyn called me and asked if I had folks with me here and I was like no ...
tah dah.
Ack. So they will yank that and some lymph nodes out in the next month or so.
Wow. It really is odd. And I so thankful that I went through with the ablation. I was just talking to the office manager at my gyn telling her that I made the appointments for the cat scan and oncologist. She said she had said to Dr. Taylor that it was really weird how I called and said ... let's do it now. The ablation. It was like I knew. And I did almost chicken out ... weenie that I am. I bled for three weeks straight. Heavy. Big clots. I was very depleted and just didn't want to go through that anymore. The progesterone was not stopping it.
Of course as soon as I made the appointment for the ablation, I stopped bleeding. And then I thought ... wow. Maybe I should just cancel but I said what the hell.
And I am so glad I did.
Haven't told my parents yet. I did tell Missy and she is good in a crisis. And was sweet. She had her gf, Camille, call me. She was an oncology nurse for 20 years and said she never had a patient with uterine cancer so that the surgical cure works.
But how weird is that? It is hard to explain our complicated relationship. They understand better when we are fighting than when we are supportive of one another. I try to tell them that when you love someone for 10 years ... in a way it never goes away. And she knows I would be there for her too. But her crazy gf? Well. Whatever.
Anyhoo. Yesterday I was numb and calling people because that is what I do. Today I find I blew my wad and have no one else to tell. :) So now I am telling the world. hee hee.
I did tell the kids and they didn't see that interested and went back to their respective computer/playstation.
And so it goes ...
